I am the first

I am the first to admit:

I might have a darker side.

I might be a vampire. Yea, I vamp others in order to fulfil my hidden desires.

I might act as a manipulator. I unconsciously manipulate others in other to feel some fulfilment of my hidden needs.

I might act as an abuser. I have acted as an abuser before because I needed to satisfy desires seeking others approval disregarding their will.

I might been a liar to achieve easily what I honestly could achieve.

I sometimes use the easiest way to achieve what I want. No worthy here.

The first step is to recognise the thoughts holding the darker self. This way there is space, room and conscious intelligence to change! And the power lies on change.

 

Co-dependency Belief System

I don’t know who I am.

 

What is Co-dependency?

Co-dependency is a field of beliefs that are exterior validated rather inner validation. Outside is the validation that one seeks and do not find within. To be co dependent is a programming created since childhood self damaging to the one self.

Feelings and emotions like guilt and shame are the primordial status of people with co-dependency.

 

Dependent Mentality

Whoever suffers from dependent personality seeks unconsciously for someone to be dependent of. Sometimes will seek a narcissistic person which only seek approve for themselves. Disregard the approval for others and make a perfect match because the dependent person does not care to any abuse that occurs to them, Actually dependent and co-dependent person do not believe in the self as well as self harm.

Self harm is also visible by beliefs that portraits the image of self unworthy, deprivation of self love and non existence of boundaries. Everybody can take care of them and abuse them, everybody can mess up with a dependent person because this one will attach easily to whatever outcome that gives what does not find with him, such as validation and worth above mentioned.

 

Narcissistic Mentality

Now, narcissistic person is someone who nether loves themselves but works in another spectrum of non worthiness for self. They seek external validation but disregard any feelings regarding to the other person, unconsciously they just attend to satisfy their own needs and do whatever they can to achieve the needs that they do not seek inside.

The difference between a narcissistic and a co-dependent is that the narc know is needs and satisfy them from any source possible with any outcome. The dependent person does not know that has needs and seeks to satisfy them unconsciously outside. The common aspects about this categories of system belief is ether them seek the love inside.

 

My experience

I was born in an co-dependent family, worst of all they don’t know they are co-dependent. Dependent mother and narcissistic father raise me as a dependent person. Now I have realised my belief system are not up to best goals of soul, one of the reason I have created this site is to heal the co-dependency mind set I once had.

I now love myself but in the last experiences I have searched for self love on other people. It was unfair for me and for them. I work with my subconscious to heal my beliefs and reality changes at every moment.

One of the healthiest tools I have applied myself to deal with narcissistic is: I do not prove my point, very direct, few words and clear. I have been in no contact for a period of time.

What I do when in contact with a dependent person is to suggest beliefs that emphasize the own generation system of the self.

 

Think clear! Rik

 

To Give up for better!

Give up is good, it gives me space, allows me to breath into new dimensions.

To give up from concepts that no longer serve me.

To be brave to identify the beliefs that no longer hold a space in my heart and by opposition are starting to be an intruded in that pure field.

I had a very strong childhood belief that I had to get rid of.

Family, my family and the definition of family.

You know how I did it? I wrote a letter why I no longer want to belong to my Family.

Why? The family I thought I once had did not accept me. Or did not embrace the values of family I am aspiring for. One of them is Acceptance. I never felt accepted by the family I supposed I had.

What Now? I quick from belonging to a family.

I aspire to be in a family that naturally accepts me.

I am grateful for being cared for my relatives but no longer I see them as members of my Family. There is nobody on my family now. Later one someone will enter my life to fulfil the true definition of family I have in my core values.

I had to tell I give up from being son and a brother. Because I never feel accepted in this dynamic. I see them as my relatives but not family. My family is entirely another dimension of being around those that unconditionally love me. Love that I never found when I thought they were my family. I struggle a lot of time to fit in and I did not realise that there is no “adjustment of self”. There is only self acceptance and natural love for who I already am.

I will send a letter and talk directly to those relatives. Cords established with them within this field will be cut and erased. I will no longer hold a space as a member of that Family, only love for them as relatives.

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To be out of this “burden” allows me space to create the self, to be the self and evolve naturally. I don’t get stuck in patterns of beliefs that no longer serve me. I identify them, destroy them and raise above. I am very contemplative performing meditation to align with my self on taking the steps to quit this energy as healthy and naturally as possible.

This is a new process for me and very challenging as I am dealing with years of childhood and programming, for that reason I am particularly aware of any change in my energy that soon I predict to be at the is best.

 

 

Have you heard yourself?

It is barely hard to write this post.

I feel ashamed of how longer I haven’t listened myself. I feel shocked how longer I have suppressed my inner child person with inside dreams, wants, tastes and overall personality to cope with today world demand of being someone else!

For what? for the sake of what?

-To please other person in order to be accepted.

-To not feel guilty, ashamed or rejected by someone else

-To feel something someone else such as happiness or validation.

Whatever, I lost myself.

So… now I am hearing myself, what I have to say? is…

+Very subtle… very subtle…

+Calm… easy….

+Assertive…

 

Just stop! do nothing, be silent, hear yourself, honestly, stop with excuses such as:

-Emotion is weakness

-Feelings are confusing.

-I am stronger already and I do not need to show my emotions.

 

You are a liar to yourself if you unconsciously are suppressing what you most fear. And I am the stronger here who faces the fear of being the self.

Are you really sure you are NOT avoiding something inside of yourself… little deep secret?

Be proud, be brave and show off. Everything is awesome and powerful in the exterior but a little child inside might be in need to be listen to!

Stop! Once again, listen yourself, be silent and do nothing. Who is you? What you are hearing?

I can’t believe how nervous I feel for being myself and the warmth feeling recognise and validate this inner signal.

Stay tune to the frequency.

What others say no longer my Way!

I am not responsible for other people emotions.

When this belief was installed in my mind the click sound on! Not anymore I was pondered by other people emotions and actions to influence my humour or state of happiness. No longer I had to deal with other people frustration to take care of my emotional well being. Instead I adopted the belief I am not responsible for what this or that person said to me or tried to and free from the responsibility of accept what I have heard as a judgement, a critic or a gaslight I simply mirror back to that person or entity the whole energy. By not giving permission to myself to respond to unwanted solicitations I remove myself form the state of being influenced by their actions towards me.

What happens now I move forward a step on reclaiming back my balance and integrity at the same moment before external situations happen and play an effect on me.

To think and believe that I am not responsible for other people emotions, attitudes, thoughts, words, actions and feelings gave me the courage, freedom and space to allow myself to breath into my own space and protect or define it as safe. That space once evaded is now protected by a boundary.

In practical terms, if someone is angry at traffic or shouts some ugly words or simply is unpleasant, another situations that bad feelings might emerge for a naive misunderstanding all those are covered by not having a real impact when I adopt (and you if you intend to) the belief of total release of responsibility for others beings.

I feel the freedom is so intense that it does not matter what I think about others, it is not relevant as well I am given the space to act as I truly and transparently want without any worries of external circumstances.

I could resume this post as: Do you feel drawn in energy after someone being or acted in a faulty way to you? If so, adopting this belief will give you the wings to let go this event and re-establish and continue with the energy or at the maximum to give you even more organic energy. It is awesome.

Brain power level max!

Rik

 

 

Safe ‘n’ change.

To feel safe whatever circumstances happen in life is an awesome feeling. It allow to be conscious while relaxed with whatever possibility might occur.

To feel safe independently of what path your and loved ones life allows to go through the changes easily and with less resistance.

This new shift of thought to “whatever happens I know I am safe”, “I feel safe all events of my life” permits the creation of a energetic shield that hold your most vulnerable aspect of self assured and protected.

You are now being blessed with change while being safe and this permits to go through process with easiness.

How many times have you blocked yourself because of self doubt due to a possibility of change?

What about if you are guaranteed safety in the other side of the change and doubt, would you still take the risk?

I always take that risk and I have been blessed with only love to deal with. 

As this is energy and we are all one the principle remains for everyone, take a risk, change and allow yourself to believe you are always safe in the process.

Have fun (and faith)!

Dreams and Reality

And when the dreams are coming into reality. When my wishes are manifesting into existence, when I can see with my senses the dream I now know that everything has changed. I now move to an another dimension, to a different spectrum of being and acting. I now operate in a higher dimension of self. A new magical and fantastic colourful, playful dimension when my thoughts are patterned to create from love any manifestation into reality. In this dimension where I do operate there is no concept of time, there is only the space between feelings and happenings.

I welcome myself to a new shift in world, in my perception and in everything around me that has now changed and has been changed since long time. I perceive and see the differences occurring and have proved to myself that I am worthy, enough and capable of gracious things that are already happening in this moment.

This website is already a manifestation of those marvellous dreams happening to my life. In the next months this project will experience good transformations and a creative wave will soon be manifested.

I am delighted to inform how grateful I am with my life now and to share here through Rik Jones pseudonym will allow to followers understand what I mean by all self energy and healing, to provide hope and insight for those who are experiencing life with an energetic mindset.

 

Speak to you soon!